Riky Kurniawan

lead a double life

I used to want to be as a secret agent, 007 is my idol. Not only he has so many cool gadgets and admired by girls, but he can lead so many life at once. One moment he is an artist and then he become the most dangerous assassin in the world. In a day he become pilot, in a night he become an invincible spy.

I think it’s easy, but I’m wrong.

Now I lead a double life. Not as a secret agent nor as spy, but as an employee and post-graduate student. Nothing special about it, but it’s kind of thing I want to write right now.

It’s not hard though, but kind of tricky.

When things get hard at the office, you must prepare task to finish so you can submit it to the lecturer. It’s not the time I’m complain about. Its the mood you have to setup. A whole day I have to suit the employee-uniform and in the evening you have to open the notebook to see the subject’s slideshow.

In the beginning, I think its fun and have no worry about it. I’ve been there, I’ve done that. I used to stand in tougher battlefield and I survived. The differentiation is, that this battle I have to fight it alone. I have no teammate, I dont fight as a group.

I am a team player, my best come up when I’m in a team. And now, getting the fact that I have through it by myself…It sux, if I may say.

I take this road because I know, someday in a chapter of my life I need it. I know things getting tough and tough gets going. I just don’t want when I get going, I can’t enjoy every step of it.

Does a refresh-button in real life really exist, if it does I need to push it right now.

*this post is intended to smash the brick wall that separate my mind and this blog, hope I can write much more*